Déjà vu

This last week has been intense, very intense. I've been disturbed by this "déjà vu" feeling more than once :S there was a mix between it an guilt...

First came the guilt but a few hours later the other one came into play: suddenly i was remembering problems I had all along the last year which I thought were far from appearing again :( Why have they come back? I don't want them to get into my life again, they were awfully exhausting and absorbing.

I'm determined not to allow them to interfere... I won't! May that make me insensitive? It might, but now it's simply not the time... I don't feel ready to face the tiredness I felt every day I dealt with them :(

Both of the feelings are still in my heart but I'm ready to get rid of them this coming weekend.

These lines do not mean I am right, they just mean I don't have enough energy to stand things not really important (IMHO).

Damnshock

Be yourself

"Tenemos miedo a mostrarnos y a ser juzgados"

Today I read this sentence which means: "We are afraid of showing ourselves and be judged". As simple as it is and so sad :(

What are we afraid of? Why don't we express ourselves simply as we are inside? Explain your opinions, tell everybody your ideas and concerns, discuss... don't fear what others will think of you.

One of my best friends has absolutely opposite political ideas to mine but that doesn't get between us and many times I enjoy discussing because I *learn* much from him. I believe we need a counter-weight, we need someone or something that open our eyes to what other people think. That make us better than we are.

Remember: don't be afraid to show who you are and what you think. Be strong!

Thanks for a great night

What a funny night we had yesterday at Mar's sister's birthday party!

From left to right: Esteban, Fran, Gonzalo, Marc( me ;) ) and Mar

Toshiba U200: suspend to ram on linux

Hi folks!

Well, this post is about my little baby: my U200-141 from toshiba.

It's been about 6 months since i bought this laptop and i haven't been able to get it to suspend to ram correctly. First of all, there was a problem with the ata_piix driver and it took 5-10 minutes to get the machine to suspend. Tejun found the problem and add the necessary to the code to get it working. This solved many problems with other laptops of the same family (U205 and so on) but, as usual, there's a problem with my version (at least with my machine)

The code in drivers/ata/ata_piix.c looks like:

.ident = "Satellite U200",
.matches = {
DMI_MATCH(DMI_SYS_VENDOR, "TOSHIBA"),
DMI_MATCH(DMI_PRODUCT_NAME, "Statellite U200"),
},

Well, after looking at the dmidecode in my machine, i tought i had to change the ident and product name to capitals as here:

.ident = "SATELLITE U200",
.matches = {
DMI_MATCH(DMI_SYS_VENDOR, "TOSHIBA"),
DMI_MATCH(DMI_PRODUCT_NAME, "SATELLITE U200"),
},

And now the suspend to ram works correctly!

I had to add that my laptop is much more stable with the i810 graphics driver than with the intel one. However, there's been a new release of the driver this week which i wanna try. I'll keep you all informed :)

Damnshock

Learn humility

Life gives us great lessons and, sometimes, it gives them more than once:

HUMILITY

Why is it so difficult for me to *really* learn this important lesson? I always trip with the very same rock again and again. Why? why? why? Every once in a while, life manages to hit me again with some situation that makes me kneel and realize my limits and that my skills will not always work.

This week, it came again :( humility! why do i always lose you?

Looking forward becoming a better person...

Yours sincerely,

Damnshock

Love traveling!

Isn't this sunset beautifull? This photo was taken in Taos ( New Mexico) this last summer by my good friend Eric. We had a great week there! I couldn't follow your pace with the mountain bike! We have to try with another sport like skiing!

Wish I could visit you all again! Anna, Kate(specially you), Rose and Eric, thanks a lot for the great summer I had!

Miss you!

There's my little goddaughter! Isn't she cute? I miss her and all my family from Madrid :( Maybe I can visit them on February...

Escape

"Another day goes without any change
The feeling we live with still remains
We're stuck in a whole and we're searching for anything to hold on to
There has to be somewhere that we can be safe from the lives we live each day
There has to be somewhere that we can be far away....."


Are we trapped? Does the actual way of life make us happyless? I continuously find people with the "apparent" necessity of finding problems where there are not. Why can't we just enjoy what we have and be *happy*.

This is as much to you as it is to myself: "carpe diem!" It should be as easy as Sonia's showing us!

Growing up...

There you are my friend, in the last months (actually, it's been almost half a year since we first met) we've become pretty close, haven't we?

Many things done, many hours spent talking and laughing at each other... it's been a really great time!

I hope this goes on!

Thanks!